Me? 40?

So, my birthday is in 18 days...and all my life...well, as long as I can remember...and anyone who knows me will tell you...I counted down my birthday every year from January 5th. I loved to celebrate my birthday. Maybe because my Mom always made my birthday feel so special? Or maybe because I love the attention? Or maybe because I just love birthdays. Well, these days I really don't feel like making a big deal about my big day. This year, in particular...I'm turning 40. I know, age is just a number. It's how you feel. Embrace it. 40's the new 30. Yea, I know all that. But, I'm having such a hard time with it. I feel like the years are creeping up on me and I don't want to be 40. I still want to be in my 30's. To tell you the truth...I think it's the idea of aging and getting old. I know what you're thinking...I'm far from that...I look great...you are only as old as you feel...blah-blah-blah.  I know all of that...but it's easier said than done. 


Instead of dwelling on the NUMBER...I am going to focus on all the good things in my life. As I reflect on the past, I have so many great memories. I was very independent and adventurous. I lived in some of the most awesome cities in California; Santa Barbara, San Luis Obispo & San Francisco. I attended a great school, Cal Poly. I met the love of my life and moved to Phoenix, Arizona. Then we conquered Los Angeles together. I had an amazing career in advertising, I learned a lot and had fun while doing it. I met some really great people along the way and established life long relationships. 


Now, I am a Mom to the most beautiful children and wife to the most amazing husband in the world. I am so fortunate to stay home with my kids and raise them myself. I have parents who love and support me, no matter what. I have a wonderful relationship with my in-laws...which is kind a of rare these days. I really do cherish that. 


All in all, I have everything I want and need. We are all healthy & happy. So, why am I complaining about turning 40 years old? I have done a lot with those 40 years and I'm very proud of my accomplishments. Most importantly, my family; Deon, Jake & Sophie. God has truly blessed my life. He continues to bless me and watch over my family and for that I am forever grateful. So, Happy Birthday to me!