"The key to change... is to let go of fear."
Ok, ok...so I did it...I returned to work after being a stay-at-home wife and Mom for 2 years. It was tough...I was afraid of the change... I'm not going to lie. Monday morning was emotional for me. But, I did it! Or should I say, we did it. Deon has always been a very involved Dad...but he really stepped it up this week to help me. The kids are going through an adjustment. I thought Sophie was going to have the issues...but it's Jake. He's not used to being a part from me. I guess I just have them spoiled. I miss them, every minute of every day...but when I get home and they run to me and give me hugs, kisses and love...I feel so special. Jake has also been sick so that might be why he was so emotional this week too. I was stressing about the mornings...getting myself ready, getting them ready and over to Coco's and make it to work by 8am. But, it's all good. The getting up early part, I'm used to...since my kids get up at the crack of dawn anyway. I still have to get Sophie to sleep ALL NIGHT! And, we're still getting started on potty training. But, overall...they are great kids. I'm so thankful for the 2 years we had at home together. I miss my kids, but I also like being out in the workforce again, using my brain, having ADULT conversations, plus...I get to talk and brag about my kids to other people. I think this job is going to be good. It's a good opportunity to start something great for myself and the company. I look forward to taking ownership of this position and making a difference. So far, everyone seems really nice and easy to work with. So, we'll see how it goes.
4 years ago...I had a baby...and he changed my life forever. Jake is the most special boy. The love we have for each other is amazing and the bond we share is unexplainable. When I look at him, I still remember when he had to stay in the hospital for the first 28 days of his life. I would go visit him everyday and when I would leave him there, it hurt so bad. But, he finally came home and has been healthy and happy ever since.
Then 2 years later...my little Princess Sophie came along. Sophie is so beautiful. But, she's going to be my tough girl. Already defending herself against her brother. She is fearless! She's so smart, funny and loving. It's nice to know she'll be 'my girl' for the rest of my life.
And, before I close...I must give a shot out to my mother-in-law. The woman who is there when I can't be [for my kids]. She NOT ONLY watched the kids, drove Jake to school and back, but she did my laundry, ironed some clothes and made us dinner one night. Thank you Suegra, Coco Sue...you are the best mother-in-law ever. I am truly grateful and I love you.
Thank you to God for blessing me and having favor on my life! I feel really lucky to have landed a good job in these trying times. And, I feel even more lucky to have such enormous love and support from my family.
Special thoughts and prayers to the people in Japan. The people who had to endure the terrible earthquake, tsunami and volcano. My heart goes out to them, esp, when I see the devastation on the news. God, please give them the strength to move on, rebuild and recover.
